Behind The Mask; An Introduction

So I figured that I would introduce myself a bit more; that way you know where my view points come from and have a better understanding of who I am.

First let me make this clear, VERY few people actually know who I am behind my many masks.

My name is Ookami Lynn and I am married to a United States Marine named Bane Rolfolk; he has been my mate for many life times, I do believe. I trust him with all of my heart and soul and cant explain how much I love him.

When it comes to my beliefs; I am a confirmed Catholic and have not only attended different churhes for different religions but also went to Catholicism classes. Now I do not hold a religion and I do not claim I belong to any religious sect for I do not worship anything; however I do tell people that I am Pagan for it is the easiest way to explain what I am.

Before I go any farther I would like to let it be known that I do not worship anything. The fallowing is my personal opinion and I dont say that this goes for others, just myself. I do not worship because I see worshiping and graveling is fearing. I refuse to fear my creator. S/he gave me life and yes, can take it away in a split second but I do not fear him/her. Why should I fear? The creator can destroy me and everything around me, and I ould be isolated and alone all within a days work but I dont believe that fearing is the way to go about it. I believe what will happen is what is meant to happen and that it is all for a reason. I believe that you should be able to have a relationship with the being that you fallow. You should respect him/her but you should not fear.

I believe in a higher being, a being that created it all; the universe, everything. I believe that there is a reason for everything that happens and that Karma can come back and tear you a new one if you dont watch your step. I believe in Gaia, mother nature, and she and I have a respectful relationship. I talk to her like I would my mother or a friend. I do not curse her name, and I do not grovel before her, I do not pray to her and I do not ask her to help me win the lotto. I ask her for advice and she helps me by sending small messages in nature and animals.

I see a life, a spirit, in everything. The trees, the water, the animals and people; we are all connected and we are all part of a bigger picture. I believe that animals are to be respected and I dont say that I have 'pets' I say that I have 'companions' and 'friends' because that is what they are to me. A lot of people cant see this the way I do, or they dont agree with it. That is fine by me. Every person should be able to fallow their own beliefs without cristism.

I guss I was lucky growing up. My parents never pushed religion on me. They have always been very accepting of different religions and as long as I wasnt sacrificing animals (or my sisters) in the backyard and raising the forces of darkness they were pretty cool about it all. I have always been someone who loves nature and have always been very intune to animals, or at least as far back as I can remember.

My Uncle used to take me, when I was very very little, out into the woods and walk around with me. Its probably one of the reasons that I love it so much and find it so peaceful, its familiar. My Uncle has always been there for me and in all honesty, he and his house have been the only stability in my life untill recently. When I was growing up we used to move around a lot and people, some my own flesh and blood, would come and go from my life; he was always there. He was kind of like a father-figure in his own ways, I can be honest with him and open up without worrying about critism...not too much at least, and that which he gives is helpful or all i fun.

Now that I have lost my compelte train of thought.

Ah. I dont agree with people shoving religion down people's throats. Like the Christians over at Ocean Walk (Christians are the easiest to pick out when it comes to most flaws, sorry), they will preach on mega phones and speakers and will try to convert people right there on the spot. Well here is an interesting story:

A friend and I were walking along Ocean Walk and a man tried to hand us the little brochure about Christianity and tries to talk to us, we both tell him "no thankyou, we're fine." and keep walking. He calls out after us "Do you know where you'll go if you die to night? You dont want to go to hell do you?" My friend, getting annoyed because this was the fifth time that this has happened, looks over his shoulder and says "Iam a Witch", do to the fact that he is Wiccan. The man, without missing a beat, calls out "Then you need to repent!"

Now, last I checked in the bible is says "Judge not lest ye be judged." That's a direct qoute. Now. This is something that I have found very interesting because most who fallow the bible dont fallow this and automatically condemn all that are not like them.

Eh. I shall leave this subject and continue on my introduction.

I have Romani blood coursing through my viens, meaning my family comes from Gypsy folk. I read cards, Oracle cards for the time being and soon I shall pick up Tarot cards as well. I am rather accurate with them and havent been too far off yet; though I do not believe fully that I can be right all of them time, I have been doing a really good job. Turns out my Uncle and Father are accurate as well when it comes to cards. Comes from their side of the family, as well as the Romani blood line, go figure. I do however, respect people enough to tell them "if this bothers you I will stop" or "if you get unconfortable tell me and I'll stop." I dont like manking people unconfortable and "Psychic Readings" tend to make people unconfortable. I also dont read for people unless they tell me to, or if my cards tell me to...long story short there is energy in everything and you can communicate with anything if you learn to listen with eanery rather then your ears.

Let me see, I see through the eyes of a wolf. In saying this let me clarify, I compare myself, my family and my life to wolves. I call my family/close friends my pack, I use words like "pack", "territory", "pup", "mutt" etc in my every day language about any/everything. I am very cautious about new people and places. I dont let anyone near my neck unless I truly trust them because I view, letting people kiss or bite my neck as submission and I dont submit. When it comes to my pack I am the leader in most cases thus the "Alpha". I train my dogs by pack rules. Meaning that my dogs know that I am the Alpha and they listen to me because of it. My dogs refuse to hold eye contact with me for any given ammount of time because that would be a challenge to the alpha. In my every day life, reacting with my dogs or people I growl, whimper and howl to show expressions. Play Tug-of-War with my dogs by acting like a dog and biting the other end of something and pulling like they do.

Needless to say, I am like a wolf in many, many ways. :)

Well that is all for now.
Any questions?